So as time goes by in my mundane life I start to think about things that could have been, Things that have been but not lasted and things that I may one day take on.
Going back to my youthful days brings back memories of a kid that could not find his niche as a teenager. Oh I wanted to be everything! I tried football (too much pain), soccer (could get the hang of it), cross county skier (boring), alpine skier (more time on my back side). Then I tried cycling and that stuck for 3 years. I felt at home on the bike. I watched "Breaking Away" until I knew the script by heart. I was talking Italian to my friends. I was a team member with a small bike club that was sponsored Wurzburger Beer. Those were fun days.
After serving my country in the Army and returning to real life I found myself wanting to become all sorts of things. I tried being a cowboy, a fly fisherman, a bass fisherman, I tried rock climbing, river rafting, hiking, weightlifter and a boat load of other things I can't remember. I tried to stay in shape. Tried running again but that was short lived. Tried biking again but once again short lived. Then I just stopped trying - decided I would just live a mundane life and put on weight just like all my friends and neighbors. That was 4 years ago.
Why did I all of a sudden decide to change myself again - who knows. I could claim that I received a message from heaven in a bright light. Or that a loud booming voice told me I had to but I would be lying. Maybe it came in a dream that I cannot remember. Maybe the voices in my head told me it was time.
I think back to 2 1/2 years ago when I first stepped foot in the gym again. It was an odd feeling, like coming home after a long trip. Everything was familiar but foreign. As I took my first steps on the treadmill I would never have dreamed in a million years that I would be running marathons, triathlons and going on to something else. Who know what the future holds. But I do know one thing. I have learned how to make goals and achieve them. From simple goals to long term goals. I look forward to the future, I think about increasing my boundaries - of challenging myself more and more. I have started triathlons, now I am planning my future goals as a triathlete. Bring on the Olympic distance, bring on the half and the full Ironman. Bring it all on. I am ready for the challenge. I am ready to commit myself, heart and soul. To learn much more about who and what I really am. To learn how far I can push.