Here I am, 10 days to go till Salt Lake. Getting excited. Starting to feel that little nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach. Anxiety setting in? Nah ! Must be last nights dinner.
Got in a 90 minute bike this morning. Listening to the new podcast by Cara and Elizabeth. I thought they did a great job for the first few shows. It's nice to just here them stay stoked about the sport. And boy do they have energy or what!
The ride went well - I did not bring my Garmin so I have no idea how fast or long I went. I just needed to get my mind off of some personal stuff I have going on. I like to workout to calm my mind and help me think clearer. I guess it may be like an addiction but healthier. When angry, some people may throw things, or get into fights, or drink large amounts of alcohol, I just get out and push myself till the feeling goes away and then I can relax and think things through.
Today however, I was able to calm down but I'm still lost as to what to do. I keep being exposed to a very negative environment (relationship) that I continually try and change to a positive environment. But, nothing seems to be helping. The negativity just seems to come back no matter what I do. I am not one to give up easily (that's why I like Tri's)but I am not sure if I can continue in my current situation for much longer. I hate the fact that all this negative energy is taking away from the energy I need for this race season. Sometimes life does in fact suck.
Tomorrow I will get in a good tempo run and start getting my stuff together for Salt Lake. I am leaving ealy on June 1st so I can spend a day at the Expo and relax in Salt Lake. There is still no word who is playing the post race concert this year. I hope it is a good rock band - last year it was Third Eye Blind.