No training today, no swim, no run. I woke up this morning with every intention of going for a run. I woke up looked outside - saw the fog and decided today would be a day of rest. Like I need anymore rest. I weighed myself yesterday and found that I am about 5-10 pounds heavier than when I left. Boy do I need to get back into the routine. I will need to really kick some booty as soon as I get back to Colorado. These last two weeks of taking care of my Mother has left me drained - emotionally, physically and spiritually. My Mother is being moved from the hospital to the hospice house today. They say it is a really nice facility, I wish she could be home, but that is not possible. She is the stongest person I have ever known - she knows she is going to be passing on and yet she laughs and gives us all hugs. She does not want us to cry and yet we cannot help it. I just hope that I can be as strong when it is my time. Death has a way of opening one's eyes to the important things in life. I have talked to God more in the last 2 weeks then I have in the last 2 years. And suprisingly, lightning did not strike and the earth did not open up. ( I though it would have ) I consider myself a Christian but feel that I have wandered away for some time. I think it is time to get myself back on the right path. I will need his help to move forward after my Mother passes. I had to re-think my training and race schedule. I am not ready for anything at this point in time. I am due to arrive back in Colorado on Monday, unless something changes drastically before then. I have decided to concentrate on the Steamboat Traithlon at the end of August. I will not be able to take any time off for this one so I will need to leave on Friday night and come back on Sunday night. Teusday, I will get started pushing the miles again. I need to get back on my bike, "Athena" and ride hard and fast. I will push the miles and push the training to the next level. I will need to find a new place to swim, either open water or a larger pool. Life goes on, but I have a new realization that life is too short to sit around and think about what you want to do. You waste so much time thinking about getting stuff done that you never have the time to get it done. Life will pass you by if you let it. Stop thinking and start doing. "Life is short - move your ass" CIAO |
